Good things about today: Friday! Weekend! Woo. Third driving lesson tomorrow, and the driving instructor seems pleased with my progress. Went driving twice with Mum and Dad.
Bad things about today: Eyes. So. Tired. Too. Much. Pent. Up. Frustration. So. Much. Weekend. Homework. Aaaaarrgh. Exams in roughly two weeks, and we haven’t gotten our exam schedules yet.
I am just… Going through the motions. I feel like I need more ‘create’ time. We do have a photography exam, though, that tests our knowledge of colour, lighting etc. Hope that counts.
I need to write something.
I have a beautiful idea for a new design in my head. But, I can’t seem to get it out. It’s like it’s stuck in my eyes, and it’s latched on hard, I can’t cry it out yet. But, I can guarantee, when I do, it will be something that… I like, at least. But that isn’t really the point of it.
Someone I know is being, quite frankly, a bit of a fucker. I would explain more but it seems really stupid when I write it, and I just get angry that someone so unimportant to me can irritate me so much. Said person insists on hanging around with us all the time, making stupid jokes that no one cares about, and believing that their presence is one most highly valued amongst us all. I haven’t really told him that I wish he would take a hike, but instead we just spend the small amount of time that we’re in each others’ presence exchanging insults about whatever we can find. His insults are really lame, and for once my smart mouth comes in (sort of) handy, so it makes me even more annoyed that someone with a really blunt wit can push my buttons so much.
…Which I suppose just makes him more determined to piss me off, since I keep making him look like an idiot. I don’t know what it is about him that irks me, but I have a feeling it may have something to do with the fact that he’s completely up himself and, well, a suck up.
He also believes that War Is The Answer, which makes things especially difficult, just because of the fact that I’m a “damn pacifist”. Some days, I wish I wasn’t, but I really can’t imagine life any other way. What would it be like, believing that war can solve problems? “There is no way to peace. Peace is the way”- Gandhi.
Sorry. I’m just stressed. I can’t get angry. Anger just depresses me. The pacifist in me wants things to be quietly smoothed over, and all forgotten. No conflict. The stressed out exam-time girl wants to yell and scream and forget about consequence. I wonder what’s worse: Not being able to control your temper, or not being able to tell someone that you’re wondering what they look like with an axe through their head?
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That someone you know sounds a lot like someone I know…
I rarely get angry, and when I do, it’s all yelling and screaming in my head. It feels nice to take it out on someone, though.
Sometimes it’s better to just voice your feelings regardless of the consequences. If you keep it bottled in, eventually you’re going to burst and the outcome will probably be a lot worse than if you just told this person your opinions. Everybody is entitled to them, and this person should respect it.
lol… interesting dream!
LOL I’m glad I’m not the only one with dreams like that !
Also, the person you described sounds exactly like this guy I know also ! Except, he’s got bored and stopped hanging around with us now yay (:
Hope things work out for you in the end and hope your exams go well !
I used to know a guy like that someone. And your dream reminds me of something that i’d dream about!
hey, I hope your driving lessons are going well…
hehehe…and that sure is an interesting dream..
Sometimes it’s better to voice your opinions whatever it is regardless of consequences. Writing about your feelings is a good idea too. Blogging usually doesn’t hurt anyone else’s feelings. Keeping all thoughts to yourself, however, is unhealthy for your mental health. Sooner or later you’ll explode or make some really big mistakes you’ll regret making. That’s what happened to me once anyways. I hope you feel less frustrated, angry, or whatever negative emotions you’re feeling now.
I hate having conflicts, especially with someone I care about. Hopefully your disagreement will blow over and you both can sort out the problems. But I know sometimes you just need a break from the person who’s irritating you. Just avoid him for awhile until you can think rationally about the situation and have better luck in discussing it with that person.
Gandhi is my hero! Like seriously. I love that you quoted him. :grin:
I have fights with people all the time - in my head. People tend to annoy me very quickly, but I know not to do or say anything because I’ll regret it later. So, I let my imagination run free, because I’m not going to act on it, anyway. :XD:
Good luck with the exams and the driving lessons! :smile:
I hate when I have an idea for a design in my head and I just can’t get it out. that happens more often than not with me and it is so incredibly frustrating!
I hate being angry at people. It is such a wasted emotion most of the time, especially if the person who causes it is someone who you frankly don’t give a crap about, ya know?
And LOL @ your dream. Random dreams like that are always awesome to wake up from.
sami: I love Gandhi too! He’s freaking amazing. :threemouth:
Are you enjoying learning to drive? I’m just about to start my lessons, really nervous :-s
I know how you feel I have a “friend” like that, its so annoying and frustrating.
I hope you do well in your exams.
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